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1:	=== slovo o prezvitere vapadšemъ vъ preljubodeęnie	[Title] Homily about a priest who had fallen into adultery,
	i prošteniju bivъšu pokaęniemъ o blude ♣	[Title] and (about how he was) forgiv(en) by the repentance about the sin
2:	popъ nekoi imaše u kostanъdinov gradъ	There was a priest in the city of Constantinople
3:	i nadvi mu diavolъ	And the Devil defeated him
4:	ta otide	So he went away
5:	ta upade ou kurъvarъstvo	And he fell into adultery
6:	i po nekolъko dni pomisli za svoe sogrešenie	And for some days he thought about his sin
7:	i plačeše potaino	And he was secretly crying
8:	i dumaše	And he was saying:
9:	uvi mene siromaxu kakvo si umrъsixъ dšu i telo	ʺWoe to me, the poor one, how I tainted my soul and my body!ʺ
10:	kakvo štem sega da se storimъ	ʺWhat am I going to do now?ʺ
11:	i da pomolim proštenie grexovъ moimъ	ʺHow am I going to ask for forgiveness of my sins?ʺ
12:	i stanu	And he got up
13:	i otide na edno mesto visoko u ednu goru	And he went to a high place in a mountain
14:	tamo imaše mntrъ i dxovnici	There was a monastery and some clerics
15:	i otide prezviterъ tamo da se pokae pri nekoego duxovnago oca	And the presbyter went there to repent in front of some spiritual father
16:	i naide tamo starъca	And there he found an old man
17:	i ispoveda popu vsę sogrešenię	And he confessed his sin to the priest
18:	i po tova kaza i kurъvarъstvo sogrešenie	And after that he told about the sin of adultery
19:	i reče mu starecъ	And the old man said to him:
20:	ox prezvitere težekъ grexъ estъ toja	ʺOh presbyter, this sin is a heavy one!ʺ
21:	ne uboja li se da služišъ stuju liturъgiju	ʺWere you not afraid to serve the holy liturgy?ʺ
22:	i reče popъ	And the priest said:
23:	ei oče sti služixъ	ʺHoly father, I served itʺ
24:	i reče starecъ	And the old man said:
25:	lepo gledai čado	ʺLook closely (lit.: well), childʺ
26:	kogi upadne popъ u takovi grexъ ne ima nemu proštenie	ʺWhen a priest falls into such sin, there is no forgiveness for himʺ
27:	no da ne služi veče	ʺbut he will not serve any moreʺ
28:	zašto sasъ veliko pokajanie trebe da pristupišъ pri bga	ʺfor you must approach God with great repentanceʺ
29:	i u ereistvo paki da ne priideš	ʺand (you must) not go back to priesthood againʺ
30:	n etъ tebe proštenie	ʺThere is no forgiveness for youʺ
31:	i popъ reče	And the priest said:
32:	ne imamъ li oče pokaęnie	ʺFather, do I not have repentence?ʺ
33:	a starecъ se smisli	And the old man started thinking
34:	i reče	and he said:
35:	prosti me čado gda radi	ʺForgive me, child, for Godʺ
36:	kakov smъ ja takov	ʺWhat am Iʺ ʺSuchʺ
37:	i grexъ ne ubojax se da sudim	ʺAnd I was not afraid to judge a sinʺ
38:	toko da možemъ azъ ot moi grexъ da se pokaemъ	ʺOnly so I can repent for my own sinʺ
39:	tova ču ierei	The priest heard this
40:	i pokloni se starcu	And he bowed to the old man
41:	i otide skrъbenъ	And he went away sorrowful
42:	i kato si ottvodeše srešna go avъva i petrъ	And as he was walking away, the Father and Peter met him
43:	i vidoxa go skrъbenъ	And they saw him sorrowful
44:	i reče mu petrъ	And Peter said to him:
45:	što ti e čado	ʺWhat is the matter with you, child?ʺ
46:	a popъ reče	And the priest said:
47:	čtni oče priidoxъ kъ onomu starъcu	ʺHonorable father, I went to the old manʺ
48:	ispovedaxъ vesъ moi grex	ʺI confessed all my sinʺ
49:	a onъ me u očajanie vъvede	ʺbut he brought me into despairʺ
50:	i reče emu petrъ	And Peter said to him:
51:	čuemъ čado što dumašъ	ʺI hear what you are saying, childʺ
52:	doidi u moju keliju	ʺCome to my cellʺ
53:	i javi mi vesъ tvoi grexъ	ʺand show me all your sinʺ
54:	ta veče kakvo šte bgъ napraviti	ʺand then whatever God doesʺ
55:	i otide prezviterъ u petrovu keliju	And the presbyter went to Peter's cell
56:	ispoveda kurъvarъstvo delo	And he confessed the deed of adultery
57:	a petrъ reče	And Peter said:
58:	po istine reklъ ti e sti starecъ iereju	ʺThe holy old man told it to you truthfully, fatherʺ
59:	toja grexъ težekъ etъ	ʺThis sin is heavyʺ
60:	i ne imatъ proštenie tebe ereju	ʺAnd there is no forgiveness for you, fatherʺ
61:	ot sega ne vozmožno ti e da služišъ	ʺFrom now on it is impossible for you to serveʺ
62:	toko da se postrižešъ na monašeski činъ	ʺonly to cut your hair for monasticismʺ
63:	i da se pokaeš istino	ʺand to repent trulyʺ
64:	i ja se nadeemъ na blgodatъ	ʺAnd I hope for the grace of Lord Jesus Christ,ʺ
	gda iisa xrta da sotvori mltъ sasъ tebe kato sa svi te člveci što se pokajatъ	ʺso that he gives (lit. does) mercy for you like for all people who repentʺ
66:	onъ kato ču taja duma i pade	As he heard this word, he fell down
67:	i pokloni se starъcu	And he bowed to the old man
68:	i reče popъ starъcu	And the priest said to the old man:
69:	oče petre kogi me bgъ privede vъ stię tvoę ruki ne štemъ da se otlučimъ ot tebe	ʺFather Peter, ever since God led me into your holy hands, I do not want to separate myself from you!ʺ
70:	i postriže go starecъ petrъ vъ monašeski obrazъ	And the old man Peter cut his hair in the image of a monk
71:	i beše sasъ tija duxovnici vъ postъ i vъ pokajanie	And he was fasting and repenting with those clerics
72:	sa slъzi neprestano plačeše za svoi grex	And he cried unceasingly with tears for his sin
73:	i bga moleše	And he was praying to God
74:	imaše starecъ podъ svoju xižicu ednu skutničku	The old man had a cellar under his cabin
75:	i moleše se popъ starъcu petru da go pušti u onaja skutnička	And the priest was begging to the old man Peter to let him into that cellar
	tamo da sedi u onaja tesnota dogde e živъ	to sit there in that tight place as long as he is alive
76:	i starecъ go upušti u skutnicu	And the old man let him into the cellar
77:	vъleze erei va nju	The priest went into it
78:	iskova juže železno i na juže to pirone	He forged an iron rope (wire) And on the rope (he forged) nails
79:	i okolъ šiju svoju iskova železni okovi sirečъ xapove	And around his neck he forged iron shackles, that is handcuffs
80:	i drugia krai n juže to zakova u stenu	And he nailed the other end of the rope to the wall
81:	i kato se beše okovalъ samъ sebe okajani za stenu i ne izleze tri dni pri starъca	And as he had nailed himself, the miserable one, to the wall, he did not go out to the old man for three days
82:	i starec vide če ne izlazi popъ izъ skutnicu	And the old man saw that the priest was not going out of the cellar
83:	a starecъ vъleze pri popa samъ	And the old man hilself went in to the priest
84:	i vide popa	And he saw the priest
85:	okolъ šiju popu okovi železni	Around his neck (were) iron shackles
86:	i juže železno na šiju popu i u stenu zakovano	And an iron rope (was) nailed to the priest's neck and to the wall
87:	i vide starecъ	And the old man saw (it)
88:	i počudi se	and he started wondering
89:	i reče	and he said:
90:	što si storilъ sne takova čudesa	ʺWhy did you do such miracles, o son?ʺ
91:	i kako štešъ da izidešъ na proxodъ kato si se tuka privezalъ i okovalъ	ʺAnd how will you go out for a pass (toilet?) if you have chained and shackled yourself here?ʺ
92:	i gde li potrebu telu tvoemu da uzmešъ	ʺAnd where will you take what you need for the body?ʺ
93:	a erei reče	And the priest said:
94:	sti oče ja po napredъ blgu merizmu ѳimjanovu nasitixъ se	ʺHoly father, first I had enough of the good scent of the incenseʺ
95:	i blgago mira i izmirъnu paki dovolъno nasitixъ se	ʺAnd I had enough of the good peace and the myrrh tooʺ
96:	a sega zlosmradia što izlazi ot mene da se nasitimъ	ʺBut now, let me satisfy myself with the evil stench, which pours from me.ʺ
97:	zašto telo me ženъsko xotenie voziska	ʺBecause my body wanted the lust for women.ʺ
98:	i dšu i telo moe omrъsixъ	ʺAnd I tainted both my soul and my body.ʺ
99:	i ne imamъ gde glavu moju podkloniti	ʺAnd I have nowhere to put my head down.ʺ
100:	no ti oče bgъ da nastavi tvoju stinju	ʺBut you, father, let God guide your truthʺ
101:	vъ dva dni ili vъ tri dni da prinosiši mi malo xleba i vodi kolъkoto da živimъ telo	ʺBring me a little bread and water every two days or three days just so I keep my body aliveʺ
102:	i priimi starecъ molъbu popovu	And the old man accepted the priest's request
103:	i po dva dni prinoseše emu xlebъ i po malo vodu	And every two days he brought him bread and a little water
104:	i popъ kogi zemeše ot toja xlebъ i sasъ slъzi go obljaeše	And whenever the priest took from that bread, he poured tears on it
105:	i tako ot xleba edeše	And he ate from the bread like this
106:	i terъpe onъ u takovo smradno mesto tri godinъ	And he suffered at that stinking place for three years
107:	i po tova radi molenie popovo oprosti bgъ emu sogrešenie	And after that, because of the priest's prayer, God forgave him his sin
108:	i doide anъgelъ gdnъ	And an angel of God came
109:	i reče mu	and he said to him:
110:	o ieree gotovъ budi	ʺOh priest, be ready!ʺ
111:	doide denъ da se prestavišъ	ʺThe day has come for you to dieʺ
112:	i paki reče petru aggelъ	And the angel said to Peter again:
113:	idi starъče	ʺGo, old manʺ
114:	razreši pokajanie ereju	ʺAllow the priest repentenceʺ
115:	i približi se petrъ	And Peter went near (him)
116:	i reče ereju	And he said to the priest:
117:	ti štešъ sega da umrešъ	ʺYou will now dieʺ
118:	a popъ se moleše starъcu	And the priest was begging the old man:
119:	ne otvezuvai me ot stenu	ʺDo not untie me from the wall!ʺ
120:	tako privezanъ da umremъ	ʺLet me die tied like this!ʺ
121:	a petrъ reče	And Peter said:
122:	ne dei čado moe	ʺMy child, do not!ʺ
123:	ne podobaetъ tebe tako da bude	ʺIt is not appropriate for you to be.ʺ
124:	erei bo esi	ʺFor you are a priestʺ
125:	no molitvu tebe da pročetemъ na isxodъ dši	ʺBut let us read a prayer for the departure of your soul.ʺ
126:	i tako bgu dšu svoju predade	and so he gave up his soul to God
127:	i uspe sa mirom	and he died in peace
128:	o ierei bratia moi vozljubleni	O priests, my dear brothers,
	kako možešъ pročeteti sie	as you can read this,
	tako možeši i sačuvati sebe ot bludnago onago sotvorenija	thus you can save yourself from the sinful creation.
129:	nikako ne podobaetъ sšteniku da beseduetъ sasъ mladimъ čuždimъ ženam	It is not appropriate for a priest to have idle conversations with strange, young women,
	neželi i sasъ staroju ženoju	(more?) than with an old woman.
130:	poneže žena ognъ bo estъ	Because a woman is a fire.
131:	dobre xrani se ot besedъ ženъski jako že ot ogъnъ	Guard yourself from idle discussions with women like from the fire.
132:	† ◄ zri	Look!
133:	sie oci sti sśenici i bratię moi	O holy fathers, priests and my brothers,
	ili ini čitatelъ koi ubo slučitъ se či̇tati sie	or any other reader, who happens to read this,
	tokmo tomu potrebno estъ razumeti sie sšteničesko delo i grexъ radi sšteničeskii	it is important to (any reader to?) understand this matter of priesthood and sins of the priests.
134:	to estъ sami sebe da umudrime	That is: Let us make ourselves wise!
135:	i da pomislime nikakъ bgu da ne sogrešaeme	And let us think, how not to sin against God in any way.
136:	poneže aggelъski venecъ na glavu našu nosime	Because we carry an angelic wreath on our head(s).
137:	ašte koi popъ ne razumeetъ sie pisanie	If any priests does not understand this writing,
	toi ni va crkovъ bžiju da ne vnidetъ	may he does not even enter a church of God!
138:	no i mirъjanomъ sie nikakъ da izvestit	But do not even let him to speak to laymen about this!
139:	poneže mi sštenici esmi naše sogrešenie da ne vnidetъ vo uši mirъjanomъ	Because we are priests. May our sin does not enter the ears of the laymen!
141:	no sami sebe da uničižime	But let us destroy by ourselves.
142:	i da se pedepъšeme da ne va muku večnuju upadneme	And let us educate ourselves, so that we will not fall into eternal torment.
143:	tamo gorko est	(For) it is bitter there.